Thinking over my life...

Well first off I am using this blog as my diary over my daily life some of this may consist of videos, pictures and writing, but today its starting out as writing. In 2013 I was pregnant with a beautiful lil girl whom I adore so much. She is the light of my life, she has actually caused me to change my life and after having her. I could not believe how much my life has changed since I had her. I joined church and I am a work in progress I am not perfect so don't judge me. I worked for a whole year to support her but now I am in school working toward getting my associates in Business Administration and I am loving it because before I know it I will be able to work in a field that I have always wanted to work in. That's the joy of it all but the not so joyous part is my down time. I went through a lot of depression after I had her. Her father wanted nothing to do with her and blew me off like I was nothing. It broke my heart and really tore me up inside. But I managed to fight and get through it, trust me it was hard very hard because at one point I was working where he was working and had to looking at him every day except for on the weekends and it was very hard to resist the temptation when it came to me and him. I eventually left and moved to another job and that job didn't work out so I just went back to school and now I am working toward my degree and I am still going to church and also becoming a leader at my church and I am taking a bible class through my church also. My life is getting better day by day I could not complain at all. But here is my little story and I will be blogging more about me later but until then have a beautiful blessed and wonderful day and my God Direct your path and may His angles of protection protect you throughout your day.

Up late!

Well I didn't think I would be blogging this late at night but I am back and willing to get this blogging thing in  motion I really don't blog as much as you can see its been 2yrs since I have blogged and I laugh at some of the things I wrote long ago and I know that some people have read what I have blogged it may have helped some people and it may have turned them away but who know... Only God knows... So with that being said I am going to try and blog as much as I can because I have been through a lot these past 2yrs and I am still a work in progress. I hope everyone is staying blessed and being blessed all the same time. So with that being said I hope I inspire or change some ones life as I take you o a journey of my life.

Today

Today was a beautiful and blessed Sunday i am going back to church again I feel I need to as well as needing my Lord and savior cause without him I'm nothing.... Amen!

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Relationship

It's funny how people say what they want out of a relationship. To me I feel like it's more of what or whom God blesses you with, that makes the relationship and it's up to you to either consider it a blessing and be a confidant, or be a comrade or constituent the choice is up to you. But I feel like this, if that person cries, you're right there to wipe their tears away, if that person is angry, upset or just feeling down for some reason, you're right there to guide them, talk to them, show them that you are their confidant and your not leaving their side for anything. GOD didn't bless you with this person for nothing or put this person in your life just because he felt like it, it was for a reason and that reason I do not know. Really to be honest just give it a chance if you feel like this person is a confidant to you be a confidant to that person. If you feel like that person is a comrade or a constituents, just ask God to guide you and show you if this person is for you. Just think about it if GOD is a Confidant to you then where can you go wrong?

Love Sick

Every time I feel things are getting better, it tends to get worse

Starting to think things are all bad, like our time is rehearsed

Wanting you so bad feeling like it's a curse

this pain in my stomach oh how it hurts

I'm crying out for you

wanting you to understand

I don't want you as my play mate

I want you as my man

to have and to hold as my husband

will that ever happen?

or will I just be your friend?

who knows only GOD knows

As I lay here in bed

I think of times we shared

I feel tears fall down the side of my head

Not thinking of how me and you shared this bed

Not once but multiple times in this bed

I run my hands across the pillow you once laid on

Thinking of the times you watched me sleep

Good Morning how did you sleep

Tears fall harder, as I hear your voice in my head

Can't seem to let go of the visions, that are locked inside

Can't make any decisions but wanting you in my life

So if possible, can we start over and make this right.